I am really disappointed from myself, I know that I love punishing myself and putting high standards to be met .
Recently I am feeling weird with the drastic change of style after removing the veil. I am trying to drew my lines what is appropriate, what is not , what is pretty, and what is not .
One of the most difficult issue, how to deal with my hair which is all over the place and with huge volume . I thought that I have been always admiring the African braids , especially the corn rose. However I am hesitant to do that for two bad reasons, firstly : I do not want the people in the streets to think that I am not Egyptian, although they already think I am African American or Sudanese…etc. and the second reason that my lovely BF thinks that it will not be nice with me. Although I think I will be pretty with it, but I am clueless what to do …… sigh
So I am a bad girl controlled by the fear of being victim to the xenophobes and racists in the Egyptians streets and also afraid from not being beautiful in my man's eyes .
I know that I did not stand up for myself or what I believe….. I am just sharing, I hope you will not judge me
This post is inspired by a warm talk with my friend Y.
5 comments:
Take care of your hair :) Maybe you should ask a friend who has experiences with hair styles. Or maybe search African American hairstyles :D
Aaaaah who am I to speak in the first place lol, just do what you think is right :) Never care for the society.
Go for the braids!! If you don't like them you can always take them out.
Just reading your blog for the first time in many months -- so many updates. You are beautiful with or without braids :) But do share the results with us, please :) Miss you!
Life goes on my friend. :)
Your cornrows are beautiful and they suit you.
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